Finally (好不容易) by Accusefive (告五人)

The city clicks
The alley clicks
Slience clicks
seems to count down the heat from your slowly warming hand.

The direction is wrong.
The weather forecast is wrong.
I forgot to bring my umbrella and so
I don’t know where to put my hands.

My heart also
is like a carousel.

Perhaps it is the density.
The destiny of the failure.
This is the loneliness brought by growing up.
The feeling is like boiling water spilling over from my heart.

My heart
where do you keep it?
Maybe you don’t care at all.
You mistakenly take my promise as something funny.
How could you face our fiery love in the past?

Your heart
where do you keep it?
I keep asking
but it is all in vain.
I should accept this confusing idea.
It is at least better than
at the end
accepting the silent loss.
I just cannot speak
to say that I have got through it.

My heart
where do you keep it?
Perhaps I should quit this addiction.

I now end this uncomfortable game.
I admit I lost it and it should make everything alright.
I now open my heart freely.
Finally
I open my mouth and speak
to say “I have got through it.”